T.T The Comeback Kid

its werid that i dont get much done without thinking of u i see u everyday and try to talk to u but its like were still scared of each other are you just that shy?? i dont get it we known each other for how long about 1 year plus its great i wonder y we dont hug no more maybe cause we are exs but it didnt seem it got to u?? did it?? to be honest i was dumbass didnt know wat love was i guass i was still a rockie at it . but i dont wanna lose even as a friend u mean alot to me like someone to talk to and some one can relate. maybe i just thinking that cause of the what of could of been with us. if i wasnt such a loser and let u away. but then again your really shy i believe. dont like to talk unless spoken too . which is nice but can a guy a text saying hey here or there one these days. i feel like i always borther u when i text u that why i get nervous when i text u . i have no idea why im posting this on this i really dont care who reads this even u if know who u r but anyways i hate this ADD i get so off topic ahaha but umm i just wish i can see whats on your mind it feels like you hind your emotions maybe so no can hurt u . i dont know your life story but i wish i did because maybe i can understand you better . you know my life story because i feel comferable somedays when we have our small convosations here and there btw sorry for the mess spell words im bad at spelling.  but i wish i can have other talk to u about like get to know you better i dont know mucb about you but overall your just a type a person thats loves to have fun and live life and hang out lots of people thats mostly it i guass so yea im done lol

if u dont know me then here you go my name is david nguyen . I went through to much shit . i wake up crying cause i can hear my parents talking lots about me . sayin im a bad kid . it only lead to depression and more crying . i hate myself because i cant keep anything close cause im scared if i get too close i will fuck up. and usally i do or i did already. Am i ready to grow up . answer i dont even know anymore. im 17 turning 18 in two months and i dont think i did anything or gonna do anything MEANINGFIL. i have dreams of being a chef and owning a resturant and live with people that acturally care about me, that i can go to when im down. i write music so i can express who i am but there are always those damm people that judge u in any way . growing up i already went through bullying comparing me to people that acturally my own brothers . it hurts the fact i cant be anything like them because if i was there acturally treat me better. all my brothers are great in there own way they do . i would be luckly if i would finsh high school . most likely not cause of these damm disabilty i cant pay attention when i want too. i can sit in the front of the class and cant even pay attention for 5 min without thinking of bad thoughts of problems i have . i lost to many friends and lost of trust to everybody cause i somehow messed up everytime . im scared to even say hi to someone to even if on text because they will judge me and put me down all the time. hearing my own mom saying u should go die and no one in this family really loves you . it made me cry so much and question am i really good enough for this . should i even live for this . my parents cant look at me st8 in my eye it hurts so much i dont what should i do but i wrote just to get this out of my head

now see i do music about a year now am i the best ?? no . am i gonna be the best ?? time will only tell . but i do no matter u assholes will not stop me to get where i wanna be in life . im gonna make it one day and fuck u people for saying i cant . i been through to much in my short life that you people go through your whole life time . say i suck . say i should quit but u know what thats all u can say behind my back but i know alittle something that u dont which is my future . I have my love ones that care for me and will be there for me . sure i might cry of what u say but it will make me stronger . my love for music will never change . if u dont want like it dont listen simply as that . if u wanna keep hating go right ahead cause no one will get in my away of my dreams!!!!!!!!!!!